Okay, so this break up was from hell. It is difficult and painful.

My ex hung out with me and Stacey on Friday and he acted like nothing happened whatsoever and he seemed really happy and carefree. I e-mailed the night after we hung out and told him that I think it's best if we don't hang out or see each other anymore because it hurt me so such seeing him so happy without me. Then he freaked out and said he was miserable and cried when he got home and tried not to phone me to ask me to get back together because he didn't know how I felt.... WTF?

So anyway, we got into another huge fight about me saying that I wanted him out of my life. Tonight we talked and we decided it's best not to be together and to lead our own seperate lives and not talk/e-mail/Facebook each other anymore. Then we could actually move on.

Sure we had lots of fun times. But this relationship wasn't meant to be as of now. He was too immature to handle things and not very understanding and I am not really not my feet whatsoever and I'm fucked up.

We said too many hurtful things to each other these last couple of weeks and I don't really want to get back together because when would be the next time he'd try to dump me again?

I am not going to forget about this, but I'm going to try to move on.

This is really difficult and painful, but it has to be done.

I am so sick of my ex trying to talk to me... It really pisses me off. I don't want him in my life for the time being. Sure maybe one day we can be friends or something. But seriously, he won't leave me the fuck alone! He keeps sending me e-mails and messages on Facebook. I had to block him on Facebook and MSN... I unblocked him on Facebook because he kept making up fake e-mail addresses and spamming my fucking inbox with lame ass shit. Oh my fucking God!!!!!

There should be a manual called: WHAT NOT TO SAY TO YOUR EX and everything he says should be in it. UGHHHH!!!

The messages he sends me are like: "I want to be friends. Let's hang out soon. I will never love someone like I love you, but I was being smart and had to end it. I don't know why I broke up with you. I want to be friends... BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!!!"

HE WON'T LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE and assumes everything is about him... He added me on Facebook and I accepted because I knew he'd fucking start sending e-mails again and shit. I honestly thought he'd leave me the fuck alone and not comment on my statuses and shit...

Like geez, I can't listen to a My Chem song and re-post the lyrics as my status on Facebook without him assuming it's about him.

What do I do? He won't stop bugging me.... UGHHHHHHH.

I have never been more mad in my life.

I told my ex that we shouldn't talk and if we do, talk in at least two weeks... but no, he has to Facebook message me and bitch that he wasn't invited to Kevin's (my best friend's boyfriend) social gathering tonight. First of all, why would Kevin invite my ex when he knew that I was going to be there along with three other people... I blocked him and got the last word and now he is currently harrassing my best friend and making up rumors about me.

I swear to God, I don't want even to think about getting back together with Cameron... He is too immature to deal with things. And I have never been so angry in my life. I think it took this to make me realize that I don't want to be with an immature dick like him. I want to be with someone who treats me right and that is able to handle adult topics and not try to give up whenever something bad happens.

He can honestly suck on a dick... I am so mad and I don't even know why I was considering getting back together with him two days ago.

I haven't cried since last night at 8 when he phoned and I told him NOT to talk to me for 2 weeks. I haven't even cried when he started harrassing me in Facebook messages. I was just furios and when Stacey got back from Kevin's, we actually LAUGHED about it.

I honestly feel very, very sorry for all the girls he will ever date.

Yesterday was possibly the worst day of my life. My boyfriend of 10 months broke up with me for extremely stupid reasons. All I did was phone him to see how he was and if he was coming over and then he snapped and said that he was sick of me... and that he lied about the day before and said he was sick so he could hang out with his friends instead of me.

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It's from Punk Rock Holocaust 2. Very lol worthy. Someone has to twitter them and ask them about this shit.

I am confused... I have no idea where my mom is. She's supposed to be coming down to S'toon today and whenever I phone her, there's no answer. Stace said that the weather is really bad where my mom lives, so I am worried now, too.

A question... is MCR making a music video for the Watchmen movie? I heard that somewhere, but I am not sure... or maybe it's just me. IDK.

Anyway, the best thing about The Spirit last night was the previews... I'm so stoked for WATCHMEN. *goes and re-reads* I know it probably don't be as good as the book, but I hope they don't butcher it. D:

So here's a review of The Spirit which teh bf wrote. Feel free to read and there will be moar links to other reviews under teh cut. :P

ETA: here's contact info since everyone is doing it:
e-mail/msn: oh_jacqui@hotmail.com
Facebook

( Review of The Spirit written by the bf )

I don't care if people read my journal anymore, I am going to write in it anyway.

( So boycott love, detox just to retox and I’d promise you anything for another shot at life )

I am thinking of shutting this LJ down. ETA: I AM NOT shutting my LJ down...

This is my new-ish hair:



I play keys in a death metal band now. SWEET.

HAPPY B-DAY TO THE TOROSAURUS:



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"Never Coming Back"

Frank/Gerard, Frank/Jamia, Gerard/Lyn-Z. Future!fic.
Warnings: Angst, MCR break-up.
Word count: 566

This is the song I was listening to while writing this:
I Don't Need Your Love - Aereogramme (It's an amazing song, you should give it a listen!)

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Hello Livejournal.

I have not been posting anything the past few days because... uh, I got heatstroke yesterday and felt sick all day today.

I have a stalker, too. Which is weird. It's this kid from my eleventh grade psychology class. :/ He looked me up on facebook and added me on msn and his display pics are of me... CREEPY...

Also, I now know how strange it is to having had fanfiction written about oneself. This chick that I'm friends with, wrote like, five about me and her hooking up in a club. :/

Anyway, Canada Day here was like, an epic fail. There were no fireworks or anything and most of the stores were closed. Stacey's 19th birthday was on the 29th, but I didn't go because bars aren't really my scene. Whatev, so I'm bringing you a picspam.

Here are pics that I've NEVER EVER seen in my life. There's probably over a hundred. YOU ARE WARNED...




( CLICK ME, YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO )

Okay, everyone is all excited about that Gerard pic and the Toro baby, so I went a-lurking today. And my lurking skills came in handy. ;) I think this is from Frank's wedding:



I bet a bunch of you already had seen that pic before. But I found a bunch that I haven't seen before! And I've looked LOTS in my time in this fandom.

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Dearest Livejournal,

Today was a rather interesting day. I'm re-learning Prelude and Fugue in C minor - I need to perform that song for my exam - which is a fucking difficult piece and makes me want to pull out my hair! ARGH. My wrists hurt now because it's like, fucking 115 in speed.

In other news, me and Petard were having a dicussion about why guys find chick's legs so attractive. He said: "Because they're long and smooth..." blah blah blah. I was like, yes, that is true. But then I got thinking, why aren't chicks all up with OMG THESE GUY'S LEGS ARE SO HAWT.

SO THEN, I'M LIKE, YOU KNOW WHICH GUY HAS GREAT LEGS? GERARD WAY. YES.

PHOTOGRAPHIC EVIDENCE:
Yes, I definitely spammed your flist... but WHO WOULDN'T WANT TO SEE THAT?



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SOMEBODY TELL ME... IS THIS REAL OR A MANIP?



Whatever the answer is...

♥_♥

OK, THERE WILL BE MANY, MANY FRANKS. And yeah, this shit is image heavy, so be warned!!

My beautiful wife who I cherish dear to my heart wanted me to do this.... because she wanted to see the many different versions of Frank? IDK. Anyway, I hope I got everything right, if I didn't, slap me upside the face. JK. DON'T DO THAT! But tell me if I messed something up along the timeline...

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		I will marry Dessie-T.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in nyc in our fabulous House.
		We will have 4 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a green like the weed that travis mccoys smokes like all the time Bugatti Veyron.
		I will spend my days as a hoboaskasen, and live happily ever after.